falling out of love.
i'd always thought i know wat its like to fall out of love. but i guess i dun anymore, as i was not prepared to fall out of love. the feeling of falling out of love it so hard to endure. i sometimes dun understand why certain peopla can hurt the one that they love the most. or rather the one that they love most at that point of time. exactly how does a relationship work if its only one-sided? exactly how does a relationship works when only one party has fallen out of love?
sometimes i really do wonder if every couple goes thru the same hardships. i have to say, mostly are pretty similar. the only thing is this, they either come out really strong, or they just succumb to reality. oh well, i am a victim of reality then. when your partner decided the fate of the relationship before it even started, that's when u realise that reality just kicked in. believe me, its crap!
oh well, that is life isn't it? i mean, isn't life all about ups and downs. making and breaking. giving and taking. that sounds like life isn't it? isn't that wat i know about life? let's live life to the fullest then...
living life to the fullest... how do we achieve that? we talk about falling deeply in love. love that one person with all your heart (even when u know that he will break your heart), hoping that your love would change the way he feels about the whole relationship.
i just got out of a two-week relationship and i feel... sad, i guess. oh well, i am lazy to talk about it anymore, but i have to vent it out of my system. however, i find that i keep repeating the sadness. without realising it, i am constantly repeating the sadness to myself. especially when i see someone or some things that remind me of him. i dunno why these feelings come so often. its so scary to think of it sometimes. i have fallen out of love. admitting it was really easy... flushing it out of my system is the one that takes a toll on me.
i admit, i wanted quite badly to fall in love. and yes, would jump at any opportunity. i loved the character i have in that sense. despite anything in the world, i am ever ready to fall deeply in love. despite all the nonsense that goes thru my life, i am always reaady to take on new things in life. work responsibilities, more challenges, relationship-fully knowing it will end. haha...
i'd always thought i know wat its like to fall out of love. but i guess i dun anymore, as i was not prepared to fall out of love. the feeling of falling out of love it so hard to endure. i sometimes dun understand why certain peopla can hurt the one that they love the most. or rather the one that they love most at that point of time. exactly how does a relationship work if its only one-sided? exactly how does a relationship works when only one party has fallen out of love?
sometimes i really do wonder if every couple goes thru the same hardships. i have to say, mostly are pretty similar. the only thing is this, they either come out really strong, or they just succumb to reality. oh well, i am a victim of reality then. when your partner decided the fate of the relationship before it even started, that's when u realise that reality just kicked in. believe me, its crap!
oh well, that is life isn't it? i mean, isn't life all about ups and downs. making and breaking. giving and taking. that sounds like life isn't it? isn't that wat i know about life? let's live life to the fullest then...
living life to the fullest... how do we achieve that? we talk about falling deeply in love. love that one person with all your heart (even when u know that he will break your heart), hoping that your love would change the way he feels about the whole relationship.
i just got out of a two-week relationship and i feel... sad, i guess. oh well, i am lazy to talk about it anymore, but i have to vent it out of my system. however, i find that i keep repeating the sadness. without realising it, i am constantly repeating the sadness to myself. especially when i see someone or some things that remind me of him. i dunno why these feelings come so often. its so scary to think of it sometimes. i have fallen out of love. admitting it was really easy... flushing it out of my system is the one that takes a toll on me.
i admit, i wanted quite badly to fall in love. and yes, would jump at any opportunity. i loved the character i have in that sense. despite anything in the world, i am ever ready to fall deeply in love. despite all the nonsense that goes thru my life, i am always reaady to take on new things in life. work responsibilities, more challenges, relationship-fully knowing it will end. haha...
not funny anymore as of now. u know, i always feel that i am very blessed in many ways. i have frens who loves me for who i am. i have family members who loves me very much as well. i have people who're ever ready to help me when i am in trouble. i am blessed with transportation for work and leisure. i am blessed with a lot of frens who are true to me and is willing to listen to me whine. well, i am a blessed soul. but there are times where i know i am so blessed and yet, i dun feel contented. there is this one empty feeling inside of me that i dunno how to describe. prolly the feeling of wanting to be in love with someone is so strong that it somehow leaves a somewhat empty feeling inside of me. and this empty feeling is actually eating more and more of me, on a daily basis. why? i really am not sure. i really dunno exactly how i am supposed to deal with this.
well, i shall just leave it like this for a while. maybe time will tell, and time shud heal... i am placing my bets on healing thru time. i hope i will heal thru time. i hope to be blessed in that sense too.
